Rylan Clark has said that he was “a danger to myself” after suffering a breakdown in the wake of his divorce.
The former X Factor contestant split from his husband of six years Dan last summer, with Clark taking a four-month break from presenting.
Speaking to The Guardian, Clark admitted that he got “quite ill” and stopped eating following the end of his marriage.
“I’d got to the point where I didn’t know if I wanted to come back. Or whether I would be able to do this job again,” he said. “It got bad. Like, very bad. And I didn’t think it would get better. I needed help.”
Clark said that he’d “felt alone” during the period and eventually “went away” to the hospital for “safety reasons”.
“I’m the last person that my friends would ever believe could feel as low as I did,” he said. “I was having thoughts and doing things that made me… f***ed up, for want of a better word… I didn’t think I’d be here. I didn’t think I could continue… I didn’t think I’d actually come back. I was very… gone.”
The presenters then said that his employers had been “brilliant” in supporting him throughout the period.
“When I say I disappeared, I literally disappeared,” he said. “I think they knew how bad I was. There were a select few people that needed to know that I was a danger to myself.”
Through tears, Clark continued: “Strange situations do very strange things to people. If it wasn’t for my mum, and my family and close friends I genuinely have no idea if I’d be here.”
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